I have once...

Don't kiss me baby
We can never be
So don't add more pain
Please don't hurt me again
I have
Spent so many
Nights thinking of you
Longing for your touch
I have once loved you so much

As I'm sitting here, typing away, I'm wondering if I should stay and wait or move on. If this was just another joke you were going to pull on me. If I can trust you all over again. And as much as I try to pull myself away, disengage myself, you keep making me come back for more. But oh it hurts, it hurts to know that we can never be, because you're on the other side of the world. I want to be with you though, so dearly. I want to crawl onto your lap and snuggle under your chin and fall asleep with your arms around me. I don't know how many nights I've spent, staring at the ceiling, imagining. Imagining what would've been, and what could've been, what might've been. The time when I loved you so dearly and close to my heart, and the feeling I have for you now - a maze, a knot, a struggle. So if you'd be so kind and tell me if it's worth waiting...

I've onced loved you

So, so much.